--sigh--- venting

I love it
she says i never ask cause i dont give a shit about her or anything else besides my boyfriend
1) Nile is the only one that actually seems to care when i am down (no talking about my friends here or on line uwu cause i love you all and you are all there for me <3<3 )

2) Every time i try and start a conversation you start it out with a "so you finally come from the cave" or "havent seen you in weeks decide to finally come out and visit us" Or something that just really puts me down and makes me feel so ad about myself

3) every single conversation we have it turns into a fight and i really can't deal with any more stress.

So it's not that i don't care it's that you simply can't handle being nice for once in your life.
you always grip about hateful and rude people when you are a main source of the hate.

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god damn i just wanna stop this feeling im always having. feeling like im always about to step on a trip wire, feeling like i need to tip toe around everything and keep to myself just for the sake of people around me.
I feel like im stuck in a cage.

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oh how i wish i had the talent to draw and do that in my art, instead im talent less and have to write this dumb shit out